straight-up conviction

do you ever get the feeling that God is speaking to you, and the person that He is using has no clue?

that was tonight for me. for the past week, i decided that i would only listen to God when i felt like it. and i bet you can guess how well that went. so finally, i needed some straight up conviction, and God dished it out through a conversation that was not really related.

my priorities were just not in line. i wanted what i wanted when i wanted it. what crap.

and it's one more place of brokenness that i was not aware of previously. though its great to be growing, sometimes its just embarrassing to come face to face with whats really in my heart.